As the Storm Settles

So there is so much on my mind.

First, I feel like things with my family are finally working out. I feel like I am at a good starting over place with them. I regret the hurt that I caused and Im going to try my best to make things right again.

Second, I have started reading this amazing book by Shane Claiborne ( Irresistible Revolution). Its really changing the way the way Im defining Christianity. I feel like I am at a big turning point in my life. Im working on defining so many things that I have been so lost about. This book is already speaking volumes to me. Its not really that the concepts are new but its putting what Ive always felt and known into logical and practical words.

Finally, my favorite topic, the love of my life. We broke it off almost two weeks ago. Im very sad about it. I am also extremely resistant to the idea of its permanence. Im trying to be realistic and Im trying to be rational, but Im afraid that the truth may not be what I want. Its very difficult to separate how I feel from what is real in this situation. I pray that God gives me the strength to do whats right. I pray that God would continue to soften our hearts for Him (whether we are together or not). I pray that God would ease the pain of heartache.