Lies I told Her and Me

I miss you.
I am sorry, that I messed everything up.
I am sorry, that I hurt you so much.
I want to make it better.
I don't know how.
I want to let you in. I am afraid.
I am afraid that you won't love me, if you see me for who I am.
I am sorry I didn't turn out the way you wanted.
I cannot change the past.
I cannot change who I am.
I am sorry.