Excuse my Attitude and Pray it Goes Away

Normally I do my best not to post rants but Ive just had it. I've finally reached emotional capacity. I've cried more in the past month than I have in a long time and its annoying. I haven't properly slept in well over 2 weeks. I'm nervous afraid excited about school. I'm sad about missing all of my friends from home. In a sense, I am just not totally ready to embrace this change. I was getting used to working all the time and hang out with people 6 out of 7 days a week or more. My best friend just left town today. I have to say that was hard. I am nervous about my new living situation. I am worried about everything working out, even though I know it will. Things at home have been kinda weird and I have been super distant from most of my family. I am still dealing with the seemingly never ending heartbreak of my first lost love. I thought that I might have found someone I wanted to date, but things have been going haywire since practically the beginning. I don't think that things that are supposed to work out are supposed to be so complicated. In the beginning, I wasn't even really looking for a relationship I was just looking for a fun crush. It seems though that I've set myself up once again to get hurt. I am so frustrated and confused. I feel like I am angry or hurt more than I am happy. And I have to say that all of these crazy emotions are starting to make me think that I will slip back into depression again, and that's a place I do NOT want to be. I find myself feeling more and more lonely and it scares me. I'm finding it more and more uncomfortable to just be by myself. I really don't even know what to do...